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I went to the training grounds, in witch Ven can see out his window. I turn into half form and attack anything that moved. I did not notice what I was doing untill I had started to attack a gaurd. I apoligized but others felt I should be punished. Ven was looking out his window, I noticed him for a split secand. I attacked and hurt many gaurds untill I got to Ven's room. "what are you doing?" Ven was standing there in front of me. I bowed down "I do not now sir" He grabbed hold of me and slammed ageints the wall. he started to choke and drag me like a washing cloth. "you were being and IDIOT!!" he snarled and threw me ageints a diffrent wall. It left a hole. He went to his desk and grabbed something, for a moment I did not now what. I got up and cleared the blur in my eyes. blood dripped out of my mouth when I felt a sharp pain in my side. A sword had been stabbed into my ribs. Ven was angrier then ever. He hit me on the head and I slammed down. "AAHHH!! it... it hurts." I clenched myself around the sword, trying not to move it. But Ven had Grabbed hold of it and pushed. "ARG!! im sorry sir, please!!" I felt like I couldn't moved, I whined more then ever "please, im your dog". When Ven heard that he grabbed it and pulled it out, I sighed as he grabbed the leash and pulled. "thats right, your my dog, MINE!!" he snarled and let go. He went to his door and noticed alot of bodys mouning and groaning. "pull yourselves together, your lucky he didn't kill you all" Ven left me bleeding there. He slammed the door and I could hear him "someone get Jun and patch him up, also watch him. And will someone fix my walls." He was Angry at me and was putting it on everyone else. I had lost to much blood and started to blur up, I noticed I was changing into a human. been awhile since I changed. everything went black, I started to dream. I was running, chasing after a deer along with my own pack. they were happy and so was I. I was not leader but just being in a pack made me smile.


I wake up in my room. I got up fast and hissed. I felt a shooting pain in my side. The sword must have been deeper then I thought, and me in my human form.... human form? no wonder it taking awhile. how long was I even out? I looked around and saw a shadow. I narrowed my eyes on it as it walked out. "Ven?" almost forgetting who and were I was for a secand "sir... im sorry" I bowed down despite the shooting pain, I was still in my bed so it seemed kinda weird. Ven walked out of the shadows "its okay get up and lay down. the docter says it will be a few days" I did as I was told and happy about it, less pain lieing down. Ven walks up to me and grabs my snout gently, he rubs rubs up and pats me on the top of my head. Of course I let him, although it dousn't mean a thing to him. I still kinda liked it. "so why did you attackl my castle?" he stopped and turned around, I lowered my head in shame. "did you want to prove yourself?" he paced a little little, back and forth and I just watched him. he grabbed my snout "what? did you want to beat me and stop treating you like a dog? say something!!" he snarled. I coudn't even if I wanted to. I guess that last part was it. beating up my lowers was not a good. everyone must hate me now. "hmm, you are to stay in your room, foods will be brought to out you with of course no drugs." he let go and left. I could hear the door locking. "don't leave him out of your site" Of course Ven left after that, He had other matters to attand to. I stayed in my bed and stared at the walls for awhile. someone had come in and layed a tray next to me, they left ina hurry. I didn't get a chance to say thank you. I look at the food and see a steak, Raw, some water was next to it. More of a Bowl, I wasn't hungry and left it there. I stared at the ceiling and then the walls. Thinking about the whole trip and... what I was thinking the whole attack. It felt like I wasn't thinking at all. I get up slowly and hold my side. I take the blanket off, and slide my feet onto the the ground. I hiss loudly as I try to get up, I see my window and slowly walk to it. I open it and see the dark night, the moon has rised and it makes it look like day time. the moon looks nice full, I look to the forest and see nothing, shadows from the moonlight slither away into complete darkness. Tears had started to run down my face and drop to the dirt below us. The pain had started to ach more and more.

I was started with the door unlocking. Ven had walked in and looked around. He see's me looking out the window "thinking of leaving are you? in that condition?" he smirked and lowered my head "no sir, just looking outside sir" Ven crossed his arms and stared at me for a moment, It felt weird so I looked outside agein. Ven walks up to me to see what I was looking at. He grabbed my arm and pulled a little, I hissed in pain and gently grabbed my side. "you need to stay in bed, and eat something", he let go and walked to the edge of my bed. I got suspicias and walked slowly to my bed. I thought it was hot and didn't want the blanket. I got on my bed and sat up ageinst the wall. I stared at Ven worried on what he might do. He had his sword, sheathed, on his side. He must think im going to attack him agien, I lower my head and my ears went down on both side. Ven just smiles at me, he must be loving this. I start to growl when Ven had grabbed my snout and pulled me. I groaned in pain "don't you growl at me, I came to visit you and you want to bite my head off" He throws me back and I grit my teeth. Ven smiles "your going to reopen that wound at this point" he got up and left, the door once agien locked. I cry louder then I had hoped, my paws on my face trying to wipe the crying evidance away. I sniffed
and cryed hours, but it felt like I didn't now why. My heart new, I am a beast, a dog, a slave only to Ven, I am alone. Nobady to talk to, nobady to hunt with. NOBADY! Out of instinct I howl for my own sorrow, everyone could probebly hear, I now Ven did. My howl echoed throug out the castle and through the forest. When I was done my tears still streamed down, I could hear other wolves finishing there howl, hearing them made me happy. Suddenly I feel weak and fall asleep.

I awake hours later in a blur. I look at my hands and I seem to have tansformed agein. My human form. I was wondering why I was chaning more then ever. It must be what is draining me so much. Ven walks in with someone else, the other person was wearing long trenchcoat and a T-shirt, it looked blue. He had a suitcase in his hand, he sets it down on a table not far from my bed. He rummages through and grabs hold of some bandeges and looked like some other stuff. they were to together to tell what they were. "get up" Ven ordered. I got up quickly and the bandeges already on fell off. I was kinda small, even for a human. "change" Ven glared at me as I start changing halfway, the bandeges broke off. I got up and it didn't hurt as much as yesterday. the docter put on a fresh bandege and checked my health. Ven watched the who;le time, I did as I was told and stuck my tungoe out and let him check my tempature and all that. when everything was done the docter left, of course Ven stayed. He walked up to me and pat my head "good jpb, your healing better then I thought". I kept my ears down, I still felt ashamed for what I had done. Ven had grabbed hold of me and jerked me forwerd, "whats wrong? not happy?" his smile had reached each side. I tried to jerk back, he started to clench harder and harder, I thought he was going to throw me agien, or worse. He still had his sword by his side. Luckily he let go and just left without a secand glance back. I checked my snout, he had a left a mark but it went away quickly. I whined and just laid down.