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I'm tired of everyone confusing me with Tiffany.

Tiffany is more fun, more interesting, and gets the guys.

Three times people called me thinking I was Tiffany, and when I said "its Tina" they give me this "oh."

Everytime that happens, a little piece of me hurts. Its been happening a lot lately too.

I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad friend, since it feels like I've been replaced.

I'm just so tired mentally right now, and my emotional side isn't doing well either.

I'm so tired of people not telling me things. If you don't want me around - say it. If you don't want me to help you - say it. Just say it, I'm tired of assuming, or feeling paranoid.

I've been so paranoid lately. It feels like I've been replaced, bitched about behind my back, intentionally ditched because I'm not interesting enough. I'm scared to look at people of the opposite gender for fear of what they might say. There's just a lot I'm paranoid about.

But the funny thing about it is, I still try to smile.

You know...I'm this close to cracking. *uses index finger and thumb to make a small one inch space*

I haven't cracked in a long time.

I feel like the "dispose-a-friend". Once I served my purpose, I'm thrown away.

I could keep ranting for a long time. But that'd be a waste of my time, and yours.

So that concludes my b***h-rant for today.

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