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something weird happend to me yesterday.i went to church with my aunt and my cuzin, the one with canser, and i was bored and very upset... i had an angry sad face. and a paster or priest, however u call it,comes up to me and he starts askin me stuff about god. i dont know what to say back... then hes like, ur heart, its so empty its about to all, ur hurting inside arent u. ad im just lookin t the ground wondering how...he knows this.. then hes like many ppl love u but u dont know it. ur a very beautiful girl, and ur very young, are ur parents hurting u. do u feel comfterble where u are livin now. and some reason i burts out in tears, but im trying soo hard no to cry... and hes like, god brught u to me, and he told me everythin i should now about u. god is telling me wat is goin on in ur mind. u fel like ur being lied.......y someone u love. ur heart it is soo beautiful, but it is hurting isnt it. and im juststanding there cryng... then he asked me to pey with him, and i refuse. im soo scared... he said sno to be scared of god, casue hes my fried... buti dont wanna prey. i keep pulling away, he wouldnt let go of my hand until i said smething... i was twitchin my nose..and my eye a lil. then we left and i was still crying but it stopped... then today y mom comes with us to church and that man talks to my mom but doesnt metion anything thing about yesterday, and i thank him for it. i have this weird way of standing. its like i put my left leg over my right leg, an i twist it to the clockwise, so my toes are faceing the heel of my other foot. and i do that to keep ballace of myself, casue i cant stand up right, it feels uncomfterble to me. and my aunt is abserving me saying that the devil is in me, and that it is trying to make me weak...are u beliving any of this. im not lying. then y aunt tells me that god is our consience. that, he talks to u or atleast is givin u signs in ur head, telling u wats right or wrong.
but enough about that experience, um today, after we took my cuzin to the hospital, my mom took me shopping for shoes, and we stopped and at a mcdonalds. so we sa next to the window where u can see ppl walk by and stuff. so like i say around the age of 30-36, well they was 3 me. and one of them bang on the window hile we was eating. so i get mad and stick up my middle finger at him. so his buddy comes by the window nd stick both his middle fingers up at me. so i standup out of my chair and i stick both my middle fingers at him, and my mom i like st down wat do u think ur doing. and i start alking in like a really loud vice really fast, telling her that those stupid men tarted it. so then shes like, ppl here arent like in the united states, these men will try to kill u if u mess with them, and i was lik then can try to ill me for all i care, lets just c wat happends i anna c them come in her and try to do something. and shes like, ug... u like to cause trouble and then that guy comes in to the resterants, but my mom is like ignore him... so tried mybest not to go up to him and curss at him. but evil stare stressed scream oh well....