I missed meh bus....again....
Solution?: Run down the street a half a mile in my pajamas. It works, trust me. So that's how I went to school, lovely, huh?
Well, Mariette, Kelly, Lindsey, Rawrshawn, and a few other people were there, so we played some card game. Mariette said we couldn't know the rules, it's a part of the game, and she kept giving me penalties, giving me a card each time....so I picked up the deck and threw it at her "Penalty for being Mariette!". I quit after that, I didn't really want to play cards in the first place, it was just assumed that I did.
So, after a while the bell rang and we went inside the commons, Josh and Justin showed up, and they hung out with us for a while, that was fun. We listened to music and got to flood Josh's ears with two different songs.
A little later, Codeh showed up and got to hang out with us, he slept in and missed his class. He said that he didn't have to go to his second class, that his B wouldn't change, but I know that was most likely bull s**t. If it's not high enough to go up to the next level if he did well, then it certainly isn't high enough to not drop to something lower.
But, part of me was selfish and did want him to stay. I'm worried that I won't see him over the summer. I know that he's hanging out with some other people, but I don't know if he'll have time for me and my unnecessary drama.
I mean, really unnecessary. I have been having a hard time keeping up a normal happy pace lately, and I guess it started when he started talking about his friend's boobs and what she could use them for, so I started getting insanely jealous and probably tried a little too hard to get his attention, and then he started texting someone, so I just started thinking and going back to doing my own thing (which nicely, was nothing). I depressed myself when a ton of things that just bother me came back to mind, along with the original jealousy to top it and I felt like an honest to god b***h.
Rawrshawn ended up picking me up off of the ground and I freaked out because I wasn't expecting it and he kind of hurt my ankle. Then Cody noticed that I was upset and tried to get me to tell him what was wrong, but I didn't even know anymore. What was I supposed to say? "Yeah well...um, so I was a jealous, lousy, worthless b***h and then I worked myself into depression, so....pretty much everything.". All I know is I was out of line.
I can't get so upset in public, it only upsets and annoys other people.
When I got home, I ended up falling asleep and my brother was going to wake me up at 4:00, but he didn't, so at 7:40, my Mom started yelling at me that taking naps isn't a healthy thing to do and that she might make me go to my Dad's just so I won't sleep so often. She said my grades must be suck if I sleep so often and that I should have had the dishes done already. I mean, I had gotten myself so depressed that I was sick and my Mom was bitching because I took a nap....
Well, I guess it sucks for me...
Love, Alex~
Shinku Takai · Fri Jun 06, 2008 @ 04:44am · 0 Comments |