Todays my Birthday..... Wow, not a big deal... I'm 14 and my life sucks ... Thats all it says... I've had the crappiest life since i can remember... NEver got anything I want unless i worked it like Seal wanting a fish, Like a Dog doing a trick just so he can get that one Treat... People try to make special by saying happy birthday , congratz, and give present but that fact that I've livied this far .... Man I'm guess I'm happy cry I would be willing to die tomorrow ... I just like dying right now..... I'm always happy so people never this side of me, inside I really just wanna die..... I guess you could say I'm emo but... If I died, I would be sad right? I wouldn't be prepared. I wouldnt do all the 101 things I planned in my life, right? I wouldnt get to wish for a thing, and let it come true. But maybe, just maybe, if I did have one wish, I would want to see everyone happy last time. I would smile right?.........
And then I die right? .....
I wanna commit suicide but I can't do it cry It's just to hard... and Even if My parents get money from so they could the bills taxes.. wouldn't all that work just killing my be for nothing and make more debt for my parents.... but at the same itme... make my parents focus more on my brother and less on me? ....
He should be the one they should on since he's the smart one... I'm mean come on they even say I would fail.... I tried my best and passed my Classes ... I don't wanna go to high school .... Cause then wouldn't that make it even more worse..... and that fact i have decent grades come on ... b's? thats good right ? ....
If I had the chance to choose how i died . First I would tell every thianks for even getting the chance to know me....
But now my time .... ... I guess you could I'm emo but I would want my death to be slow and nice so that I could have one more chance to shed one more tear ....
But don't worry about me ... I think I'll make it for about 5years more when I'm living by my self and then ill commit suicide... bye!~
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(Note :No I won't commit suicide c: .... for specials reason XD So ignore that part and just read.... yah i was being emo those XD .-. ... eventually random ideas come and it'll even
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