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It gets worse everyday. But day by day I bear it. Smile with the good deal with the bad. Up every night, sleep through class thats the way I live my life. Though I'm living a lie. I want to be happy, I want to be free but I'm caught in the middle of being a kid and an adult. Many changes I've gone through, good and bad. I've lived through them all, no matter how sad. Now I see, where the light will lead. Soon I'll be free. But do you see, all this pain I hide. Covered with a smile and a little white lie. Can't you see, that I'm dying inside. I'm still a little girl, who is being beaten by the inner me. I have my issues, I hold them inside. Afraid of becoming like a parent, from which I hide. No bruises visible, no scars around. But it's tearing at my insides, of what I have left. Can't you see, the tears I cry. Aren't for you or me. They are for the things I've dealt with, every last glistening drop. Each one splattering as they reach their end. I am like that, silently falling, not a peep from me. So I write in my journal, of these tales I live. Hoping one day, I will be saved. Don't you see, I tell no lie, unless you don't see. Then I try. Try to save you from me. For the beast inside cannot be tamed. Maybe you don't see, how I'm slowly dying, wilting like a flowed in the swildering heat. I have no grudges to bear, just the weight of the world. Pressing onto me, I dare not tell. So now you see, the life that I live. Never ending, a bottomless pit. Slowly falling til I am nothing but a tear, dropping onto the carpet floor. I said before, no grudges to bear. But now you see...or are you invisible to me? Just leave, I have said to much, I must hide. Til the sun arises from the tree tops. I must dream, until I awake again. This never ending nightmare, might just have an end. But I'll never know, unless I see. My eyes are clear, won't you look at me.
 Coco_Bunny23 · Wed May 21, 2008 @ 06:46am · 0 Comments |
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