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Well, I don't know why I have the urge to write this now. Exspeaily when it is 11:15 and night and I was suppose to have already gotten into the shower and now going to bed. but I have the weirdest feeling to just sit here and talk... type xD. Not that it will be about anything major. Just something for me to do. I havn't been able to sleep properly for a while. It could be of severial things, stress ir my body just used to staying up late now. But because of my lack of sleep I have been actually able to notice that i have been come weaker and more sick. O_o which even more proves that I should just stop and go to bed. And now for some reason just thinking of food at all makes me feel horribly sick as well, eatting has become difficult. But i do it.=3 I do it so i can have some kind of strength left in me. some times with how all this is happening to me, I wonder if I am going to have a short life or a long one. I need to get my self into a much better shape or it will be a short one. And sorry if this seems really negative. I once again do not mean for it to be that way. I just... feel the need to get this out. I don't mean to worry anybody either. =) I will do what I can to get healthy. Okay my friends? I promise all of y'all.