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This is what i have been working on for a few days. I hope you guys like the results. I put a lot of effort and thinking into it xp
I've posted it up here just for you guys and to see what you all think. So you MUST leave a comment if you have read it and you NEED to tell me what you think, what needs improving and such and such. If you don't then i'll hunt you down and chase you around your house with a baseball bat. BEWARE heart

Chapter One
It’s all his fault. It’s everyone’s fault. It’s definitely not my fault. I had nothing to do with It. This is either really happening or I’m having a nightmare. Yes, that’s it! This is just a very vivid dream, the rare type that makes you feel that it’s actually real.
As I relaxed my tight eyes, I was looking for the courage to somehow unglue them and let them see what my heart wanted me to believe. But the mere thought of looking at reality pushed me back into my own little cave. I’ve been there so many times it’s almost like a second home to me. Nobody can get to me when I’m there, in that beloved, imaginary cave of mine. Not that they would even try though. Nobody seems to notice or care about how I feel about anything these days. People just assume. I guess that explains why I don’t mind my own company, nobody around to bug me.
“Holly?” said the most familiar voice to me.
I reluctantly opened my eyes and looked up at the ceiling, the floor, the mirror, the table. Anywhere but my hands and what they were holding.
The figure that sat across from me had his elbows on the table and was leaning over the table towards me, his eyes searching my face as if they could see all the thoughts that were running through my head. I wasn’t going to give anything away. Not that easily.
“Wow, this is.. great. I’m really happy for you guys.” Even a fish could tell that my heart was not in my last words. I seriously need to take lessons on how to lie.
“You don’t sound very enthusiastic about it.”
“What do you expect me to do? Jump up and down like an excited puppy who’s just earned a little doggy treat?” I couldn’t stop the sarcasm in my voice.
“Well, it would be a better response then the one I’m getting at the moment, Holly.” I always hated it when he told me off. He knew it too. “I would’ve thought that you’d be excited, over the bloody moon! This is the best thing that has happened to me in a very long time and you don’t even seem to care!” He rose from his seat, knocking his chair down as he did it. Fury was written all over his face. He’s never been able to control his emotions. Even when he was with mum.
“You’ve always said that I was the best thing that’s happened to you! What makes this little foetus more special than me?” I’ve always hated myself for letting my feelings show through my voice. If I was upset it was shaky, if I was about to cry and I was holding in the tears then I wouldn’t talk at all and just look up at the ceiling or the sky and wish I was in any other place. Any place but the place I was in. My dad also knew that too. Sometimes he knew me better than I know myself. Scary huh?
I stood up and turned my back on him, leaving him standing there motionless. The only thing that changed was the expression on his face. Guilt swarmed across it like ants in their nests. I didn’t stay in the room for much longer. I went straight to my room and flopped down onto my bed after slamming the door shut. I hate arguments. Especially when they’re with people I love the most. Especially with my dad.