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So you've come back to me
and now you see that it's not as bad
as you thought but its still going to hurt
and you talk to me now and pretend that your fine
but I'm walking the line between your wants and mine
but in time Im sure we can figure it out
but even now the pain is still there inside
and I cry more and more as each mesaage comes knowing
that my hoping cant keep you here, yet I want
you so badly but i guess I'm still selfish as always
but at least for the next few days you'll be here
for each tear even if it's not the same as it was
before all of this happened between us
you've lost trust with me still
you see that I'm here and I always will be
but this sea of lies that is still between us
these secrets within us still burn at our throats
desperate to open and scream out at eachother
at one another we exchanged words
both not sure what to say
but you stayed anyways and it's not what you'd promised
but to be honest, I'm glad you're back, even though
this little show that we put on was something unlike
the normal fights we sometimes have
this one was bad and hurt far more than average but
still we chat on this little box on my screen
I'll keep it clean, and suck it up, I'm fine
I'm in line with myself and I'll make it
I'll take all the breaks and repair them
and spare them the pain of this again
that's why we're just friends
best friends till the end
at least that's what I'm hoping for
but you wanted more, I guess you
will just have to deal with this pain
yes, it's real, not a dream
but remember this scene, you know how to
prevent it, you can spare the pain from another, and
from feeling it again, so just close your eyes
smile wide and breath in the air while
you're still alive and know that I'm here
so, how does it feel knowing I'm still here,
waiting to hear those words of apology,
Hell, it's a trilogy, this thing we've been through,
the times I held you
in my arms, yet only through words
but I could see your soul and how brightly it shown down
on my frown, it casted a smile upon my face
it erased that sadness and replaced it
with joy and my tears stopped their flowing,
and you showed me your feelings,
but now it can't be like that, for we're just friends
and it's my fault in the end, still just know
I'll miss our moments together, I just don't know
what I want anymore, and I'm sorry for
all the pain, there's nothing for you to gain anymore
but you're back at my door
theorecticly of course, but you're wanting it back
So here I am, my arms are wide open
we can still be best friends
until the end, just like I promised.