Not feelin too hot... hot as in great (I know Julian'd comment on me sayin hot). Tryin to ignore my dad, take care of my sugars, and school. My Godamned math teacher is really screwing me over. On a test he MAGICALLY decided to give us, (Worth like, 30% of term) he asked us a trick questions about homework we haven't corrected yet... Woop de doo, another fail, thansk to Assfore. Him hating my guts for no apparent reason? Icing on the cake. Science isn't all that grand either, I screwed up my last test, but am catching up just great. All in all, I have a great opportunity to get good marks this term, just gotta work at it.
Home is so SHIATZY right now, you have no idea. My mom is nervous as ever, my sister is amzg, but she can be annoying, my brother is TOTALLY being a douche, and getting away with it ALL the time. My dad... Well... thing is, he REALLY likes my brother alot more than he likes me. I think it's to the point where my dad really loves him more. He refuses to play cards with me, it's kinda sad. It's getting to me too. My brother gets away with EVERYTHING, literally, he YELLS at my dad and my dad does s**t all. For the people who know how much my dad CARES about my feeling, if I did that, I'd be 60 feet under (Screw 6). Even my mom, my brother knows he can get away with anything, so he's stuck up, AT FIVE YEARS OLD. ********. I can tell he's gonna be a star when he grows up. But I don't care, I'm gonna mold him into someone worth knowing. No matter HOW MUCH I hate his personality, he's my brother. I'd go to hell for that kid. My mom is really rippin me open. Attacks from all sides, I gotta say. Brutal sometimes. Hard not to love her though. I mean, we'll be in the car, singing our hearts out- actualy, more like screamin songs, anyway, we have a blast together. One time, in the car, we were going "BAH!" for like, 5-10 minutes. I'd say "BAH!" then she would, then I would. I mean, Jesus, she's so cool. Only problem is, she gets stressed, and when she gets stressed, she gets nervous, and when she gets nervous... well... Hello Behemoth. D: My sister is just terrible sometimes. She will totally ignore you one second, scream at you the next, the 2 minutes later, LOVE you. EVEN THAT CAN GET ANNOYING. Let alone her lying, procrastinating, blah blah blah. This whole journal aint about complainin, I love my sister. More often than not, she is the best person to be around. It's just those moments, where she is IMPOSSIBLE to deal with.
Bah, I don't like talking about my diabetes, but that's also turning out to be a problem. I'm having trouble takin care of it. I aint dieing or anything, just more tired than usual. It wasn't till yesterday that I had a wakeup call. I kinda-sorta fell asleep / lost consciousness on the couch. Not so amazing. So I'm pickin up the slack. I can be so stupid sometimes.
On to the happy happy ;D! I'm finding talking to Aldo, Alicia, and Julian kinda comforting. It MIGHT sound strange, but I feel like, for the first time, I fit in with people. Never had that. I always remember RUNNING after people trying to keep em friends. Now find an even ground. I don't worry about stupid things like "WILL HE TAKE IT THIS WAY, WILL HE TAKE IT THAT WAY", I can relax and talk. That might make me a looser, BUT I LIKE TO THINK OF MYSELF AS A LOVABLE LOOSER, THANK YOU VERY MUCH D: <. Like, me and Aldo play Age of Empires 2 when I go over. Nerdiest thing ever right? But when I'm playin AOE with Aldo, doesn't seem so horribly nerdy. We add our little ZING to things. Just the thought of that makes me happy. I think of Aldo as more of a brother than a friend. I don't think he'll get mad at anything I say. I like to kid alot. Takes a bit of time to get used to, I know that. Julian is always there. I find he's the kid in the corner waiting to talk xD! AND BOY DOES HE EVER. Never a break from conversation, I love et. xD Like, we can turn anything into conversation. If ya want a long, convoluted, exaggerated opinion, go to Julian, HE'S ALL THAT AND MORE. Alicia is like... MY BACKUP FRIEND!! D: <!
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JOKING XD!! No, I can tell her ANYTHING. No joke, I don't think she's any more grossed out with me as when we first met xD!!! I heard a fair share of her secrets too. And you know what? We aren't strange! Ok? WE AREN'T!! We're alot worse xD!!!! We're two pees in a strange ******** up pod D:! Lmao, yeah, I love keeping secrets. ALDO, ALICIA, JULIAN, JIZMOAN, UUUUUGH D: < xD Like I told Alicia, you know yer a good friend of mine when you realize a few things. It's hard to tell, even I realize that, but in a way, it keeps the line between my good and not so grand friends kinda foggy. Which is why people get all fussy. Yeah, so there's a couple:
1. I keep your secrets secrets to the grave.
2. The advice I give you is complicated, and in proper grammar
3. I usualy come and talk to you first
4. I respond quickly
5. When I answer something, I use alot of faces, or write long paragraphs (JULIAAAAAAN)
That's pretty much it. Yeah yeah, not so AMAZING, but you'll notice em if you pay attention.
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