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I went to sleep, and only got 3 hours of rest before I woke up and just started crying nonstop sad

My boyfriend was telling me about his past in full detail. And it's just not plesant. Makes my past look so much happier compared to his confused So when I slept I dreamt that he and I were talking to each other (on the phone or MSN or something) and right in the middle of the conversation, BAM he's gone. He killed himself, right in the middle of a conversation. (by jumping in front of a car...I know it's weird logically, but a dream is a dream.) Well, worst is that I knew he was trying to kill himself in the dream, and not only did I not try to stop him, he had a few friends to help him with it >< And after he died it took me a minute to realize that he was dead, then I woke up and started crying and crying...even though I know I was dreaming and everything...and wouldn't stop crying for an hour before I forced myself to go back to sleep ><

Well, I finally woke up in a (very slightly) better mood, logged on, and I saw his post about his past... At least he's alive...

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