I'm not too concerned with my life right now. Everything is actually going okay. I'm so happy that summer is coming. Alex and I will be at the creek and up at Kmart and McDonalds like crazy. It'll be a lot of fun. Hopefully we'll get the new boat for the river, too.
But I am worried about Alex. His grades are down. Up in some subject, but in others, not as much. I'm thinking that he will fail this year. Sometimes, I think he needs it, to have a punch in the face, to show him that he needs to work...but other times, I wish he could move up with me. It will be a bit weird without him.
I haven't been over at Alex and Andrew's house in awhile. Mainly because I don't exactly know if they want me over there, especially Andrew. He's so obsessed with his damn girlfriend. They walked past my house and one of her friends was shouting something at me. I know it shouldn't matter, but it does.
I'm ready for some excitement. I need a boyfriend, so badly. Its so hard not to have somebody to hold onto at night and lie there and think about in class. I have somebody I still love, but I don't know if he loves me back. Its confusing.
Everything is just getting so complicated, and I want to get out of highschool and go to med school already. Oh yeah. Did I mention I wanted to be a cardiovascular surgeon? I do. Really badly. I want to save some lives and become something that nobody in my family has ever done before. My dad wanted to, but he had never made it. It was too depressing for him.
So... I hope ya'll have a good day, and don't think too hard, or get sad. Because summer is along the way! The sun's gonna come out and we'll be all okay. So... thats just something for you to think about....
Can you taste the fear in her sweat?
