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Hey people. I guess I pretty gloomy now. I also quit something I love and I wish I could have never done it. But I've done the damage. I'm also upset because my now ex-boyfriend left me for a close friend of mine. And he got her pregnant. But I like her, she so nice to me, and they're great together. I wouldn't be good for him anyway since he wanted something more from me than I could give. I'm a slow person, I go through stages of my life slowly. So when he wanted to do something I didn't, I would hold back. Like a race with a best friend, if I got tired I'd stay back a little, but my friend would go forward. I can't really help it if that's the way I am. I love myself, and if you don't love yourself, then why love at all? Really, think about it. But that's basically why I really left the forum I loved. If I could go back, develop more friendly relationships, and surround myself with people I know and care about me, I totally would. But nobody really liked me in it anyway. I only had a few friends, and when I tried to reach out, nobody would hear me. Like a mike that was turned off and your the star. No one can hear you, so they don't bother to listen. I really need to find some close, personal friends for me, so if your some one who likes me, then give me a PM and we'll talk. Please help me in my time of need. I need love. Not just regular, "I love you because I have to," love, actual love. And I suggest you take the time, yourself, to go up to one of your friends and say, "I love you," I assure you, it'll help them, and you. That is, if your in a bad mood all the time like me. Like my motto says, You only get one chance in this world, it's a chance you gotta take! lol

You know what this world does, all the time? Not mainly the world, but the people in the world do? They only talk about themselves! Like in this entry, I've only been talking about myself! Me, me, me, ME! Take some time to talk about.. Your best friend, your Grandma Rose, your brother's latest gross out. Seriously folks, don't talk about YOU all the time. Now I'm back to that, "I'm controlling your life. Listen to what I say. NOW!" thing.. sorry folks..

Well, it's 11:01 PM and I gotta go to bed. I got church in the morning. Byeya!

Sincerely with love,

Life of a depressed-smiley-faced girl
*Me*