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Argh, people are ******** sometimes (excuse the language). They probably have access to my journal and I'm supposed to be their friend, but I just can't keep it in anymore!

So a friend bailed out on me today on something really important, which practically ruined my plans for the weekend, which is totally lame. And, like, they waited until the LAST MINUTE to bail out so that there was no possible way I could change my plans and have it accomplished some other way. So tomorrow I have to spend probably fourteen hours or more in a place I won't want to be because I can't do anything because my friend completely ditched my plans. Oh, and my RLS will have a party to hell and back in the cramped little car we're stuffing five, possibly six, people in because of all the standing and walking I'm going to have to do. Tomorrow will just be loads of fun.

Not to mention I'm going to have to get up at some ungodly hour to get ready because WE ABSOLUTELY MUST GET THERE AS SOON AS IT OPENS!

My boyfriend and I are still having problems. He won't tell me anything--when I asked how his day was, he just said "alright" and nothing more. When I asked what he was thinking about, he just said "oh, nothing, don't worry about it" and left me hanging there wondering what was bothering him. I'm really worried that our relationship is going to fall apart. sad

But then...he also told me today that he missed me terribly--in his words:

"every time I see someone that looks remotely like you - same hair color, or skin color, or smile, or face in general, or anything, I get this terribly strong sense of longing, and any time I'm away from you for any extended period of time, I worry an extreme amount. It's driving me nuts, but it just reminds me how much I love you, really."

So maybe he does still want to be with me?

I dunno. I've never been so confused! But I really like having this journal; I didn't think I'd like updating it all that much, since I've never really done well with journals, online or off. I've been updating this one pretty often, though--how many entries do I have now? Four? Five? Not sure, heh.

I'm busy listening to E Nomine right now. I love that band. "Mitternacht" especially is a great song. I just love the lead vocal's, well, voice! It's so deep and sexy, it makes me soon~ xD I hope I don't blow out my speakers... I'm listening to it pretty loudly, xD

Well anyway, that's it for now, I think. I'm gonna stop formatting my entries so that they look like they have more stuff in the body. xD