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Oh I can't sleep and I'm not suppose to be on right now but I got too many thoughts going around my head to sleep

Well it all started I was talking to my boyfriend and college came up. He is already off to college leaving me at home because I'm not in college yet

I applied for the school he's going to because I want to be with him and be a dietician no problem right? My family doesn't have the money so I'd get loans and scholarships blah blah blah

Momma wants me to go to another school away from that one and be a social worker because its a better smaller school plus its cheaper.

So I'm going crazy on which one to go to

then comes back to the money because I don't want to be in debt over my head after school because I want to get married blah blah blah without giving my debt to my partner

So community college near where I live I can get a degree for social work without it being to costly (I wouldn't have to pay room and board, meal plans that sort of thing) plus I'd keep the job I have now.

plus if I gone to community college my mom would be mad and yell at me for not letting her help my with scholarships and yadda yadda even though when I ask for help she said I was old enough to do it on my own...

So the community college really sounds good cause my debt wouldn't be as much
but don't you think its degrading to go to a community college when you have the knowledge to get into any university you wanted (I've got a brain...just no grammer or spelling lol)
<don't mean to hurt anyones feelings on that>

I don't know I just stay awake at night wondering what I'm going to do with the rest of my life
does anyone know what I'm talking about? (I don't...)

Anyway I couldn't sleep I supposed I could get on and take up space on the forum

yea I know I'm childish xp