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Phoebe,

I like talking to you. Except sometimes I don't have anything to talk about. So I say whatever I can just so that you''ll have something from me. I don't know what people will think about what I'm writing. I don't know what you'll think either. I don't care what other people think though, only what you think. When we walked out to the dock fireworks went into the air. We watched them as I put my arm around you and held you closer.

When we started to walk off the dock I tried to hold your hand. You pulled away and I didn't know why. I kept thinking to myself "Does she even like me? Should I have tried to hold her hand?". Then I was feeling sad because I couldn't find the answer. Then you asked "Why do you look so sad?" I shook my head but didn't say anything. You knew that something was wrong just by the look on my face, and I knew you cared just by the look on yours. So I answered only because I knew you wanted an answer. I said "You wouldn't hold my hand and I like you." Then you replied "I'm a little shy and I like you too." Then we held hands for the rest of the night.

We spent most of our time sitting outside, next to each other. Just watching the kids run around. I had a good time sitting next to you, talking with you, looking in your eyes and your smile. I love to see you smile. Whenever something funny would happen I would look at you to see if you smiled. I also did some funny stuff so that I would be able to see you smile just one more time.

Whenever I'm around you I get this feeling in my stomach. You ask "Why don't you eat?" I say "I'm not hungry." It's really because you make me real nervous and my stomach gets this weird feeling. Like when you're going really high up really slow on a roller coaster. I grew up around you but I never noticed this feeling. Until I moved away, then I lost a certain feeling. I never knew what it was, because no matter what I did the empty spot was still there. Then I came back and saw you again, the feeling returned. I've liked you for so long but I never noticed because I saw you all the time. I guess it's true what some say. "You never know what you have, until you don't have it anymore."

I wrote this in hopes that you would read it. This is for you Phoebe.


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