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FIRST this has to do with this weekend, NOT specifically at home or any one my friends might known! This is about several bathrooms and how men and some women are just nasty...

Becoming Anti-Social to the point I sure as hell don't want to meet new people NOR do I want this thrust upon me where you damn well know there's going to be a fight to defend myself (especially from unhygenic morons)

LET ME EXPLAIN WHY I take showers the way I do. Because before I can EVEN get ready for a shower most of the time I have to rinse the tub out. No problem, but EVERY TIME? ( this is where ocd steps in) gets tiring and annoying. I check to make sure I have: a CLEAN washrag, not used unless I KNOW I last used it, shampoo and conditioner and mah razor...and often bodywash with proper washing sponge.

When someone else uses my razor, or washing item, and DOESN'T CLEANIT OFF OR ASK TO USE IT I GET PISSED. Now its dirty, because I have NO IDEA to what extent the person was dirty who used it! And i have to toss it now. thanks, cause you're replacing it.

I have a bathmatt so i don't slip. apparently it gets tossed out at home so i ******** tossed it in my bedroom since NO ONE is going to use it.

(For the love of god, fix the downstairs bathroom because four people to ONE bathroom is NOT going to work for long and YOU KNOW i already have my issues)

Then theres the part where i don't shower regularly.
AGAIN, I've been that way since a kid, partly because my stupid stepmother was so big on appearance that Me or my sisters got dirty having to clean up after ourselves anyways. As in scrub the tub and toilet every day for this woman's insanity. so i didn't bother half the time.

Second, AGAIN the skin issue. I wasn't always of dry sensitive skin, but now i am -doesn't help i take steaming hot showers either - and now i have to used color treated shampoo....heh.....yeah right. might as well have died my hair back to brown instead of streaks....

THIRD besides tammy, i don't like using other people's showers because i don't know their bathroom schedule nor do i know the level of cleanlyness within either....grrr

am I so wrong in wanting people to be a little more hygenic?
Oh yeah don't even get me STARTED on the toothbrushes!

Now the anti-social issues, i don't like meeting new people because they'd rather judge me down to nothing or instead of saying sorry i don't want to be friends but lead me around and make me wonder what the ******** they play games instead,

Because i know who my friends are and because i trust them when they introduce someone to me i don't have to worry about how will this person treat me or turn around and be an a** or betch. Or cheat on me or ruin what relationshop (friend family or otherwise) to get the person from me they want. Or worst of all, TRY to turn my mother against me. That gets an immediate boot to the spincter and said person WILL NOT be walking anytime soon.

So yeah when making friends I so DO NOT want to have to check said person over or how they treat people in general to see if they're two faced or fair weather friends or if they've been taken in and are going to ******** up what a good place we have here for their OWN REASONS. I so don't want to have to watch a person like a hawk for fear that person is going to hurt my friends.....nor do i want to have to wait for problems to arise, seperate your stuff, dun use mine or ask first, (certain things excluded don't use it its unhygenic!)

because i sure as hell don't know where you came from, the state of cleanliness or worse you could have lice. This DID happen and believe me people the state of sanitizing required is such a pain in the a**. just pick your house up and drench it in rubbing alcohol.



THE POINT being i don't want to make friends because i've been hurt so many times by calous a-holes i don't care to try anymore. Or because people can't just tell me the truth.