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so heres how my last week or so has been. was it last friday, i went to see fantastic four by byself cuz i dont have anyone to go with. i would have asked sara to burn the time with me cuz that was the only person i could think of calling.... i didnt think she would be into it so i blew that idea. after that i spent mabey four hours moapping in the mall because i was reliveing my live since valentines day.... bad dream brought it back... oh hey IM DREAMING AGAIN!!! yay. well yeah, i shut my dreams off somehow. anyways back to the mall. i was walking around just looking at everything. remembering the only good time i have ever had at the mall. and now i was alone. i ended up breaking down and started to cry, cuz lonlyness ******** sucks..... case and point my sunglasses didnt come off that entire day... well thats not new but still. i blacked out and found myself standing on the jewelry store, and talking to the clerk, aparently i was looking for a locket for the girl of my dreams... ehhehe..... i had her... i let her slip away... thats why im so ******** lonely.

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the london bombs. i was awake when they struck.... i swear to god my heart stopped. i immediately started iming my friends in london, and got no responce from any of them. so i freaked and didnt sleep until i got a responce from them all. so i ended up staying up for three days worrying.

what else is there. ooo my nana and i got my sister back from my mums house cuz things were going wrong... eh all that jazz... she stayed untill a day or so ago and than my nana and papa droped her off at me mums friends home. she called my aunt miserable.... and now i hear that my b***h of a mm is trying to get my sister to stay with her even though she is already enrolled for school here, and has a seat in the class with her name on it, course there is still a month of summer for her. unlike me....... i start aug 8. i just hope it goes well, i have to get my self out of calculus.... considreing i never passed geometry... long story dont ask.

i talked to my aunt. apparently our plans to send me to cali for a week or so went to hell because my uncle is a ******** ditz. so to make it up to me we are gonna road trip there soemtime, but for now we are gonna road trip to sedona... so we can get away from the big city, and just walk around. besides i havent been there since i was five.

i started cleaning my room and found a picture i drew on a train trip in the mountains north of here. some how it turned out to look like an actual drawing..... well considering i cant draw for s**t it looked good. ooo i found some pics that i burned when i was pissed at my now ex..... well actualy i was pissed at multiple people, and i shouldnt have done it. i saw them and i strated crying, my knees went weak and i put my head into a brick wall.
ummmmm wht else did i do
ooo last night i got another one of those caller id blocked calls i think i talked about before..... they hung up when i answered. but whts even weirder is that my closest friends that dont really talk to eachother, and even friends in other states, all think its the same person. well im not sure anymore cuz a couple weeks ago, i got another one of those calls, i answered it and it was either a prank call or two drunk girls asking for some guy named patricl. i was like wrong number... and they kept asking for him and s**t... so i finaly hung up... five min later the same girls called back. i said hello and they asked for patrick again.. i just hung up.... they never called back sence from what i can tell. anyways i had got that call a night or so ago and i got a strange feeling when i answered, like i do when i tlk to a certain person... but we dont talk anymore and now life is shitty because of it. man i miss her.
well today i play cheuffer to my nana and her friend while the "did gods work" stupid Jehovas Witnesses. than i came home and hung around online for about six hours. most of the time thinking of how my life is screwed up.
i went through my phone out of bordem and found a phone number that i should delete but i decided not to.... eh... mabey shell call. idk.......
i gave my password to a friend so he could see my friends list. he went thorugh and found the sn of my ex that i apparently talk a lot about... i havent noticed. apparently he somehow got into her journal and read. he thinks we are perfect for eachother now..