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am i losing it?
i don't know. it's been a really BAD day today. maybe i'm just going down hill? or my emotions are slowly killing me from the inside. whatever. one of my friends haven't been in all week and i finally know what its like if i never meet her. my life would suck!!!!!! if i didn't meet any of my friends, my life would suck! but anyways......today was terrible! it starts when i sleep. i'm getting my permit next month and i keep having these dreams were i get kelled in a car crash. but i don't ever dream. i don't believe in them. so i couldn't sleep at all. then when i got to school......it was like i wasn't there. in Bio......i went to my desk like it always do. i had my book, binder, and everthing else i needed on my desk. the problem was......my book. well, my teacher wanted to collect the homework and i even opened my book. i put the book under my bider because my homework was in my binder. after he was done colecting it......my book was gone! i started to freak! i asked one of my friends where it was and she said she never saw me with it. i was like, "but i opened the book! i ******** opened the book! it was right here!!!!!! am i losing it?" well i sit in the back of the room next to the window, and i the sill behind me, i always put my sweater. anyway......at this point, i was freaking out!!!!!! but i looked behind me and saw my book. and the weid thing was......it didn't look like it was thrown there. no. it looked like it was placed there. i picked up the book and started to cry! i turned to Sommers and asked, "hoe the hell did it get there?!" i was starting to scare her. i REALLY don't know how it got there! i swear on my life! i have know clue how it got there! the rest of the day i was shaking and wouldn't stop. my mind wasn't with me at all. huh. the bus ride home was interesting too. well, my other friend and i were talking about her boy-friend. he's really good to her. i don't know why, but i said, "i just wish i had a guy to love me and hold me close. but that'll never happen." i almost made her cry. yeah. i just don't know anymore!
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