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Punky Needs Some Seriouse Advice. I realy need advice on this one, I just don't know what to do anymore. Well about 2 months ago a super realy good friend of mine told me she was sick of me because i'm sad and negative all the time. Well now she acts like were complete enemies. And it's hard to avoid her, because everybody I know and everybody I hang out with, knows her and hangs out with her, plus we work together. But thats not realy the problem. The problem is that i've been depressed about it for the last 2 months. It's horrible, and lately i've been calling sick alot to work just because I don't want to deal with seeing her. As soon as I see her I automatically feel like s*t. And were both brides maids in my friend Melissa's wedding (which is on Saturday). The bacheloretter party is tommorow, and I don't know if i'm going to stay very long, I just dont' feel wanted by anybody that's going to be there. I think the part that bothers me the most about this whole thing, is once she stopped talking to me, a bunch of my other friends stopped talking to me. They're always with her, and they don't want to hang out wiht both of us at the same time because were not friends anymore. And the way she acts towards me is so stuck up. I've just felt so left out of things lately.sigh* I just wish somebody would show that they care about me even a little bit. What a ****** whore. She brags about everything in front of me at work ... she doesn't say it to me but she makes sure i'm there. She brags about her new bf (**** whore screwed him already ..... it's been 3 weeks since they met, and she was a virgin when they met), she brags about shows, everything! It's like she's trying to make me jealouse, but i'm not, I think she's rather pathetic. But still, it bothers me. I need to know how I can stop letting all this bull st from getting to me. I'm sick of calling in sick to work because I dont' want to see her .... I think i'm going to get a new job (I have been wanting to for awhile now). I'm sick of feeling like st day in and day out. I'm sick of laying in the bathtub full of water crying and my bf banging on the door telling me to unlock it because he's scared i'm going to kill myself or some stupid st like that. I need help, somebody please help me. I'm begging on my knees, save me from my own self desruction.

Posted by: punkarama Thu Jul 07, 2005 @ 03:42am

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Commented on: Thu Jul 07, 2005 @ 06:35am


	Punkah!! Don't be sad about a stupid b*h like her! What you need is a New Job, some new friends who are willing to stand up for you because they care about you. Friends that are going to let someone say hurtfull things about you are too insecure to stand up to someone who is power tripping on your emotional state. Loosing friends is a good time for introspection, not the kind that you do all the time, the re-run depressing thoughts about body image and the things every girl goes through but [i]really[/i] looking at your life. How did you end up with friends that would do this kind of thing? How can you change your lifestyle to dissasociate with them and become more self-relient emotionally? I had to learn the hard way that when you love someone that it is much easier for them to hurt you, my old high school friends did a similar thing when we all graduated and only now, a year later, am I able to really talk to them at ease. They really looked down on me for having a boyfriend and making new friends that they didn't approve of first. Now the group still hangs out but I'm an irregular instead of one of the main girls. :roll: You can get through this, you just need a lot more listening than anyone in your family or friend circle can provide. They can't deal with your problems impartially because they're so involved in your life. I really think talking to a trusted family friend who you relate to, or even a counseler would help you to get feedback that isn't clouded by that person's involvement in your everyday life. It's too bad that you're having to think about getting a new job, but I really think that it will be good for you to get a new circle of co-workers and maybe meet some people who have different social circles than the ones that the b*h has any influence on. It's not your fault that she is being so immature about this, if I were you I would just really try to seperate from her drama and make some changes in your life that will affect you positivly. pm me always if you want to talk :heart: :heart: :heart:

Commented on: Thu Jul 07, 2005 @ 07:51am


	huge hug

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Commented on: Thu Jul 07, 2005 @ 02:59pm


	Thanks kala ... and actually my sister said her boss is looking for a new waitress (my sister is a cook at a restaurant) so she's taking in a resume for me today. And seeing as I have waitressing experience, and that my sis is well liked there, I should get it.

Commented on: Fri Jul 08, 2005 @ 03:01am


	Good Luck with the Waitressing Job, it would be cool to work with your sister, you can save on gas driving to work smile

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Commented on: Fri Jul 08, 2005 @ 08:21am


	i think your doing the right thing man, starting fresh, meeting new people, new job etc, i just hope it all goes to plan for you me little fruit cup heart

Commented on: Fri Jul 08, 2005 @ 05:37pm


	Thanks again kala, you always know what to say, and thanks hiz heart

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Commented on: Tue Jul 12, 2005 @ 01:32am


	BE ON MSN MORE WHEN I AM!! domokun scream

Commented on: Thu Jul 21, 2005 @ 06:31am


	<3 I hope things turn out for the best punkay, I'd hate to see things ruined for you. sweatdrop hugg

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