ok. i am having a pissy night. the moment i step into my house i get s**t. I get bitched at about my computer being in the house. i can can't call it home cuz my heart deffinitely isn't here. what the hell is up with that. i'm having a problem i don't want to get into. so we'll just say i have a problem with the word "no." But to add on to all of that my drunk a** uncle is [******** with me now. he's really pissing me off. I tried to warn him. but nooo, does he listen to me. i'm on the brink of snapping and killing everyone around me. i can't wait until i move out of ths hell hole. i ******** hate it here. all people do is b***h and nag at me, and all i can do is let it build up until i [******** snap. that recently happened. emotional break-downs are bad. some one save me from my hell, i did nothing to deserve this. i feel like i should just end my ******** life now and get it all over with. death is what comes in the end anyways, right? God, and no ******** good nights anymore. my love i feel is also fading and i know my life has joined it too. i wish someone would kill me alrady. i'm tired of being totured by ******** christmas is on its way again. i really need to die now don't i. thats the day everything deserves to end but does it. NO. it doesn't.
god its just one foul mood after another.
