Sad to say I'm feeling alone and abandoned by nearly everyone. I'm writing this entry knowing that no one will read it therefore making it a note to my future-self. I have recently realized the exremes at which i am used as a backup friend. Here i am 9:58pm and my parents are gone in philidelphia and i should be having some sort of party. nope. Instead im watching sadly enough 101 dalmations. I'll tell you nearly all my friends have abaondoned me with girlfriends and i find myself wandering into the shower wondering if i will every get a girl more and more. I have the feeling that my 5'3 129pound body is not holding up to well to the pressures of teenage-hood and the stress of the complex mind of women. My only remaining friend zak (cyn) has not been in contact with me in over a month and i feel like he has drifted from me and he may only come over for my cookies and guitar hero game. i wanted to write a book with him. I had an idea about a conspiracy with religeon and a myth , im not so sure what the myth is but knowing me and him it would most likely turn out to be a vampire. I remember our 3 hour long talks about guy stuff and our dream of buying a van and going on an everlasting roadtrip, our bohemian dream.lol. (btw i just recently cleaned my room and found out book with the bills car plan and signatures for the van plan) that little note is somthign only zak andjeff would klnow about. We dont have to give up on our dream dude just keep savin. im nearly 1/100000000th of the way there...... WOAHHHHHH LIVIN ON A PRAYER(bon jovi DAMN YOUUUU!!!!!). Zak you are my inspiration. You make me strive to think smart and creative. Damn i sound gay but really its true, you cheer me up and somtimes you bring me down but together we have gone through so much i don't even give a s**t. We are friends even if we are drifting. That's all for tonight. maybe more will be added later but gubie,
Vash(CoW)
 The Brown Bear · Sun Sep 30, 2007 @ 03:21am · 1 Comments |
