This journal entry is probably more suited for my other account (since they're all a bunch of rants) but I felt like I should write something in this one for a change.
I'm just tired of everything. Well maybe there are a few things I'm not tired of but mostly everything. I'm tired of school (ooh a whole 4 weeks), I'm tired of my job, I'm tired of friends, I'm tired of the past, I'm just tired of my life in general.
School isn't really such a big deal. I'm tired of it, but I've always felt that way about it and I'll get over it. It just seems like with my job I don't really have time to do anything. I'm already doing bad in my classes. I have an hour in between school and work and that just isn't enough time to do anything. My manager won't give me hours off of work for school and she refuses to work with me on heavy days and light days. For some freaking odd reason, she likes to give me light days off and make me work on days that I have a lot of school. Does this even make sense???
Friends and the past can kind of go together. I am seriously tired of most of my friends. (Real life ones and a few specific online ones - don't worry, if it were you then you'd know it). I have one really really good real life friend that I would never hate or get insanely angry with but all the others are bothering me. And past friends too.
For one I have this friend/ex who wants to date me (again. If you could have called that dating...). I told him no many times yet I still feel like he's pushing me. I tell him not to do something and he does it anyway. Like I tell him not to touch me and he'll do it like a hundred times. And I'm not even exaggerating. Or if I ask him to do something or when I asked if I could borrow one of his comic books he was like "well what do I get?!" Um... nothing? What the hell. YOU GET TO BE MY FRIEND, that's what. Seriously, him and I have had a lot of trouble in the past and he still does these things. Half of me just wants to stay away from him completely. He's lucky I even gave him another chance at friendship.
And along with those things he just seems disrespectful. I have morals about not having sex before marriage, smoking, and drinking before you're legally allowed (or just getting ******** up drunk in general), and what does he do? He'll sit there and say "I'm getting drunk tonight.", "I'm going to get you drunk and take advantage of you" or "Want to come to a party with me?"...etc etc etc. N ******** O. Why would he do that when I told him not to talk about it around me and I don't like it?
I'm tired of thinking about another friend too. I did so much for him and cared so much about him but never got anything in return. He just kept wanting more and more out of me but in the end it was just a total waste on my part. Yet when I see him with other people that he hardly knows, he's completely nice and giving.
I seem to have a bad habit of getting used by boys (I won't even consider them men).
I am getting a lot better at putting my foot down with things. I guess I've just taken so much crap from everyone that I've had enough and I naturally just don't put up with it anymore.
Lastly one of my ex boyfriends is being a total jerk. When he broke up with me last year he said when he got a little more time, we would get back together. So a whole year has past (it was literally a year and a few days) and he hooks up with someone else. Thanks a ******** lot. Well, I can't say I'm too upset because I wouldn't date him again if he were the last person on Earth. Hell, I'd date a woman before him. I've thought a whole bunch about this kid and he is nothing but trouble anyway. And just so you know I came to this realization about 5-6 months ago. I'm not just saying this now that he's dating someone else. Also with him, every time I try to talk to him on Myspace or Facebook or whatever he deletes my comments. Even if I would just say "hi." he'd delete it. Yet when I see him in person he's all like "HI!!! *SMILE*". Two faced jackass. Seriously, if I ever get the chance I'm going to beat the hell out of him. But there will never be a chance. --complete sadness--
I guess that's really all. I just had to type that all out. Get it out of my system or something. I feel a little better.
SORRY THAT WAS SO LONG
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Asses.
That's really all my brain can come up with at the moment.
But I'm glad that you're putting your foot down and not taking anymore crap. *Nodnod*
And I'm glad that you felt a little better after typing this entry. I really am. (:
p.s. And those ex boyfriends, tie them up and stick them in a closet. Jerks.