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alright, so i'm bored, i'm tired, i feel like shouting at people for some reason, i'm hyper, i feel like i wanna die now, have been feelin that way for a while, and i am HOT!!!

i don't know why, but now i just feel so sad because a short time ago, i was reacquainted with a feeling i tought i'd ditched a while ago which dragged me deeper into depression which i really don't need right now since i just made a deal with my mom over a video game and it's stressing me the hell out. One thing you should never do, NEVER in your life make a deal with your mom, especially if she's injured. BAD idea.

i'm tired...of just about everything now. i'm tired of being in love with this feeling that any day now, my heart can be brokn again, and actually push me over the edge of the cliff which i call my sanity. i'm tired of trusting so many people completely, knowing that i could be betrayed in an instant. i'm tired of myself even just for the reason that i even exist...for feeling that i don't belong here, for feeling so damned depressed all the damn time. i'm just so damned tired of every thing, of feeling inadequate, unwanted, unloved except by people who don't really know what i'm like, since i want to save them the feeling of being rejected. i', tired of living...but i'm stuck here...stuck in this existence, anchored by my feelings for family and friends alike, and the only girls i know will ever love me...i want to let it all go...but i can't...

This has been another rant by korei99, if you're reading this and think i'm a ******** moron for writing this, then ******** off, i don't care. thank you very much enjoy your ******** day.