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{ Mood: Mentally exhausted }
{ Listening To: Enjoy the Silence - Lacuna Coil }
{ Reading: The Vampire Lestat by Anne Rice - pg 367 of 550 (I got sidetracked by Eclipse, but that's finished) }
{ Eating: Skin~ Too bad my arm doesn't taste good at all = 3= }
{ Scent: Cat D: }
Well here I am . . . in a rut again. I'm still fighting--and losing--with my characters. You know, like always. I'm fighting with Alicia and Jaxson once again to just GIVE IN!
They say I'm allowed to write the story and now I'm not allowed to write the story. They are making things impossible for me! I just want to write their story and they keep laying red herrings for me. Just yesterday I was writing about faeries, and then I was writing more vampires, then sirens, then humans, then more vampires. And that was all yesterday! I can't even tell you--or remember unless I'm staring right at it--all the crap I've wrote in the past two weeks. TWO WEEKS!!
That's right; two weeks. I've been fighting for two whole frickin' weeks. Do you know what kind of headache that brings? You probably can't imagine the yelling and screaming but ohmygod it hurts. Really, really bad.
Although I hate them for it, I have to say that they had something going with the faeries.
And what about Naomi and "Ace"? They got lost too! Naomi is turning into some other character that is not Naomi and so I can't even write them anymore! And it was a good one, too ;___; </3
But I'm terrified to say that it will get dropped like the rest of them. Only one has made it out alive and I don't even like it anymore. I can't even write the sequel. I have the need and the compelling urge to turn around and rewrite the whole story before I even touch the sequel again. It's quite bothersome. Not as much as the screaming, but still the same.
It's odd too. Because of all the headaches I've been getting with all this nonsense... my head twitches gonk . The temples. It's just a quick double twitch but it feels weird. And it comes a lot more than it used to. Ugh.
Anyways, I don't want to rant too much. I'm having too much fun slamming my head on the keyboard to be ranting. I can't wait until I get to the clawing-my-eyes-out part :3
 Olive_the_Monkey_Ninja · Sat Aug 11, 2007 @ 05:44am · 2 Comments |
