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I'm so confused right now I have the mixed emotions of exitment, greef, unease, lonelyness, and a yerning for love. I don't know how I'm going to deal with this mix mostly the love part because I know that there is a girl out there for me, and for everyone else for that matter. The only thing that troubles me is that for all the experince with love that I've had I never found the girl for me, two of them left never to be seen again, another got mad at me then left, and the final one desivered better. (I truely hope see finds her guy in time.) I know that all I realy have to do is wait and look, but it's so hard not to wonder, "When will I find the girl for me?" This is ecspecialy hard for me since I've seen so many of my friends find their loves, but I'm yet to find mine. I hope no one ever has to feel the way I do now because this feeling is the feeling of emptiness and dispare, the feeling of utter lonelyness. I mean almost every cartoon these days and almost every movie has some characters falling in love, but when you look at those cartoons or movies it can be hard not to see a resemblence to real life. All the sanarios may not be realistic or even probible, but the love the characters share with eachother is hard to not almost feel. All I'm realy trying to say is, "Why?" "Why am I to be left alone for years while all my friends and piers find their loves?" If you have read all of this that I have typed, then I hope you got a glimps into my life, and got the idea of you, yourself, trying to find your love.