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i need you here i need you to help me why do i always feel like this when you’re gone why i feel sick i feel empty this can’t be love it hurts so bad i need you here everything would be so much better if you were why am i crying why is my stomach churning why do i feel this way i’m so scared i don’t know what to do i want to call someone, but i remember everyone who ever cared is gone you’re gone i can’t call you these damn restrictions these damn chains there will be hell to play if i do it’s 2AM and i can’t stop thinking of you what is wrong with me i don’t get it at all whenever i feel this way you’re never here to listen, but once i get these feelings out to you it feels all wrong it’s all so confusing i want to be alone, but i want to be comforted i love it when you hold me i feel at ease, but i would feel much more complete if you were here i’m scared of hurting others i’m scared of hurting you every time i feel like this i always hope and imagine someone can see me, can feel my pain i wish you would know this all so bad, but it’s horrifying to let it out why do i always think about you on nights like these? When you’re suddenly gone i’m so scared i can’t believe i’m crying when everything feels incomplete like something missing .. you i’m not sure it’s so cold these damn words just pouring out of my mind it’s pointless ‘cause no one will understand i hate this feeling of missing you why can’t you always be here i can’t call you so all i can do is imagine, imagine your voice, sweet and calm i don’t know why when you’re not here it makes me burst into tears i’m not used to this feeling i doubt it’s love i need you to hold me i don’t know why, but you’re the only one who can comfort me like this [you’re the only one who tries in a way without many words] you won’t be here until late morning so i guess i have to learn to live with the pain until you call just so i know you care all i can so is pray i dream of you so just maybe i won’t miss you as much and i’ll pretend i sleep sweetly like that every night and not just completely dreamless… i’m so scared i don’t want to wake up, but i have to in order to see your face… i miss you

i’ve got it all out now, so please tell me why i still feel like crying...
is there something more?
Do i?
Yeah, right…
…i’m scared…
i love you?
I dunno…
…
..
I Love You.

… So why do writing those words make me cry?