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<center>its finally Sunday, and after a long, long day of dealing with my family, i am finally gettin some me-time.
been talking with Cali Cat, an older friend in California, and we are discussing how people are great test subjects. i'll copy the convo for ya.
my thoughts are in blue, his are green</center>
see, irl, i have developed this "personality" around everyone else. i am curious as to how everyone acts to certain things
right now, i am workin on a shy, stupid, weak little girl who cant remember or do s**t.
pretty good withmanners, always callin everyone ma'am or sir
thats around one set of people; older teens of my ROTC group, around teachers and adults, not as shy, yet polite, and around other kids, crazy, weird, stupid, and likes to laugh alot; care free.
yet on a certain few i have one where i am unstable, creating these wicked stories, and seein mess, scared and needin a friend.
only people on here, who cant see what i look like, do you know my real personality
i am not very good right now at them, but i am workin on it
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awsome. thgat is by far the most interseting thing i have ever heard of.
i love studying people. i like seeing how they react to things. they are like animals, some, and often are unpredictable
i used to do that in high school myself and it ws incredibly intersesting, only i did poor and polite
i came to the conclusion most of society is shallow and ignorant
i seem to be pretty good at the shy little girl act who doesnt know anything and always polite
i have found that you can really see and catagorize people by what they are in
the most interesting people are those of ROTC. they are the ones that actualy have disciplin and sense of valor.
that is very true. what i really found intersting was the fact that the intellectuals were shunned while the jocks were praised. i mean, they don't even realize the people they were alienating would some day be running the planet
it was awsome. but the ROTC cats at my school were tools. they were nothing like that with the valor and such'
they like pretty people, the general populous
the ones here are close people, and have very interesting personalities. they can be easy and relaxed one second, yet the next they are stiff and ready to action
and i am happy because i am part of that an learnen not to make emotional faces and learn this displinary, something most people do not have
these people also develop beyond normal people.
now, if you wanna see someone interesting that i am "experimenting" on, its Smith.
smith? whas that?
Aaron Smith. he is the dude who is teachin our class. hes a senior
hes one of those dudes who can be really cool, but strict at the same time
i am really watchin him
i wrote this really creepy short story, Death By Pencil...
hes begun avoiding me now. lol.. i think i scared him.
but its very interesting
but just doesnt see me
i am like invisible, not there
i'm seeing how much horror he can stand
see, you gotta watch out fer those. i did something similar and they tried to commit me
they said i was crazy and that i was a danger to myself so they were gonna send me to the nut house
see, thats why i am testing smith
he made a promise that he wouldnt. he is one of those freakshows who beleives in never ever breaking a promise an blah blah blah
so i am testing his limits
hehe.. i even got on the rifle team, and i am waiting to see if he will make me get off
awwey are gonna stick you hardcore
i mean the office probaly has a huge file on you. thas what they did to me anyway
nah nah, teachers have no idea, i don think
or they see me as some poor little pet..
still you fit a profile. i's sure that story you wrote was shared with someone. that's another thing i found out about people
thats what i am watching Smith.
i even gave him permission to do it
no one has come to me yet, though
yeah, they won't. they'll just watch you real close until you do something strange again. then they'll call yer house
people are cowards when it comes to stuff like this, but it makes them very prodictable
*addin this to my journal, knowin no one is able to read it, yet its there for when i run away, jus to creep the cops out*
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 Silver_Flame118 · Mon Oct 18, 2004 @ 03:59am · 0 Comments |
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