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hurtfull situation.....

	The Worst Living Hell Imaginable....
	The Worst Living Hell Imaginable....


i have a bestfriend which is a hot guy.... wink ...we were bestfriends since i was 5 actually he was 2 years older than me,my mom introduces him to me on my fifth b-day...after some few years i felt somthin' that i haven't felt before...when i see him sad i felt terrible,when his sick i felt worried,when his broken hearted i feel dieing inside,when his w/ other girls i really feel so damn jelly...(don't know why..)...after that i went to our garden then thinked about it...then i realized that yes i'm really inlove w/ him period.when his late at parties i get all paranoid then after that i started day dreaming malicious things... blaugh blaugh blaugh ...but one day he brought a girl w/ him and told me "hey carol i would like you to me my girl "rail"...i was shocked for a second or two...after that i smiled and acted so happy about that...my acting was perfect...i fooled them...it was burning hot inside,it was like i was gonna fall apart infront of them,i was torn apart so bad,the deepest wound that would'nt heal...even if time stoped...it felt like i wanna die or just vanish from him and the world's memory like i never egsisted,i felt pity for my self for loving an idiot...day afer day i see them together so happy,but i was so depressed...after that i started moving forward w/ my heart still in pain but that wasn't a good idea 'coz i started dating cute guys and let them cry at the end...nathan heard about that and scolded me...now i know they we're all just corkes to stop the the bleeding inside...when i told him i'm so sorry he replied "for the first time i heard a girls heart shattered in pieces...tell me do you have a problem..?you could always tell me i'm always here for you and i won't leave you even if heaven and hell collide"...i was so stunned i waned to tell him how much i feel inside...i wanted to tell im how much i love him..but i can't because somebody owns him and that would ruin our relationship as bestfriends...so i just stayed quiet...after that insident i stopped dating guys....but last four years he died w/o saying good bye nor me telling my true fellings towrds him.... scarlets_moon · Sun Jul 22, 2007 @ 03:15pm · 1 Comments


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Mon Jul 30, 2007 @ 12:56pm

awwwww there nice :')

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