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for years, i have considered my life a living hell... several people i know tried cammiting suicide for reasons that were pathetic, i live with those same reasons every day..., i have help, several people find help to look away from suicide, yet i fouund out i couldn't help myself...
My life was a wreck, my parents don't understand me, and my friends are of no help to me, and i was ready to crack...

today things are as much the same here except there is something new

I know have found something to hold on to...love... my love for Moulee is too great to end my life now... holding onto the possiblity of being able to see her soon, keeps me from going over the edge, she has moved my thoughts away from suicide, instead to pleaseing her. All i want is for her to be happy... i would do anything for her and no barrier can keep me from doing anything at her request...... and i promise to myself and to all that i love moulee forever...