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Screwed Over
I slept all day today, pretty much...so that when it came time to WOE, I wouldn't get tiered. The way things are going today, though...I'm not sure I even wanna WOE anymore...
Isaac took it all. I can't believe he'd do that to me...last time I give anyone my password...::sigh:: I feel ******** over big time...and everyone thought he was so nice too...
Oh well, you live and you learn. I shoulda asked for his pass to then it'd all be ok now. He's just like the average well off person in the game. Yea...thats a way to look at it. In RO, he is solid or upper middle class and I am the lowest of middle class...I was, atleast. ::sigh:: He acts just like all those other people...I was stupid to think he was anythign more. As long as he has those other, high classed, rich friends on the game...he has no need for a poor peddler like me. sad
I think to optmistically about people sometimes. I think we're all good people deep down, I forget how corrupt the human race really is...
I guess its not all that bad...I'll just have to hunt more on RO instead of leveling.
Oh...don't get me wrong, xd I'm not depressed right now. Just in that "I just woke up" mode... sweatdrop So a little lame inside and way shy and way quiet and I gotta shake outta this mode before WOE tonight.
... sweatdrop I actually dreamed about WOE...thats how much of a loser I'm becomming. I'm kinda scared about tonight, 'cause I have to get on mic and talk to the guild like that....::sigh:: I don't like my voice, and I don't want them to hear teh ugliness talk....but I have to, and its like this is IRL or something, I don't wanna do this...but I have to.
Gosh I'm so friggin screwed....how the hell am I even going to WOE...
I dunno...and now some person on RO keeps trying to message me asking for help for some person named Sann. I can't even help myself right now sweatdrop People are so weird... 3nodding
Now Isaac is being a little b***h and...well...I dunno what to do now. I have to train...no party or driving tonight...maybe I'll get lucky and get something worthwhile.
My life seems to be turning out just like the Joy Luck Club. Nothing but saddness from everyone around me, and now I'm suppose to miraculously look inside myself and find that magical will to continue on. Its hard to have a will when you don't even know the way.
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