She threw the flower away.
Its gone. Everything is officially gone.
I feel hopeless and helpless and empty and shallow and like I don't belong here. I don't belong anywhere. I need to be outside and stay away from everybody because I just ruin things. Thats all I ever do is ruin things. Everything is gone and its all my fault. I just ******** things up. I want to be dead. I want to be dead again. But I can't because I have to live for everybody else again and if I die I'll just die knowing I ******** things up even more than ever. I always feel like I'm getting over it but it just brings me down because I think about something I used to do with her or accidentally dial her phone number. Its horrible. I'm not getting over it. And I'm still answerless. I'm just dead. Lifeless, anymore.
GONE.
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This will mostly be random outbursts, my day-to-day ramblings/rants and the rare events that happen in my boring life.
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