cry I really try not to show this side of me but i cant help it right now. i just feel... well numb. i have felt like this for five years. some dont see it but then others do. alot of things have kinda made me numb. first i have my uncles' cousin and brothers deaths, and while all this is going on my dad moved out like 5-6 times. found out that i have epilepsy got burned , did drugs for awhile(NOT ANYMORE ABOUT 4Years AGO)drank alot, started smoking and god do i fricking regret that, trying to figure out who my friends really are. its harder than most people think. plus finally about 2weeks before my 16th birthday 2 yrs ago my parents finally divorce. but out off everything losing my brother is the hardest thing i have gone threw. it took 6 months for the dumb cops to even figure out sort of what happened. they didnt question the witnesses right away, we always had to get on their butts to do stuff. blood alcohol wasnt taken from any of them for about 1 day finding out that 4 of the witnesses told 2 diffrent stories. it hurts. i know some people will try and say look at her whine im not trying to i really just need to say something and this is the only place i feel comfortable saying this stuff cause only a few of my friends are apart of this. so im sorry if it seems like i did but i needed to talk about it . neutral cry
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