Where have they all gone? It seems everyday one more of my friends poof...they seem to fade away they never talk to me anymore...and unless they talk to me first after a while I wont talk to them...*Sighs* What's wrong with me? I feel like I'm changing yet again....getting more entangled more and more of the Gothic group at school I mean there is nothing wrong with it but I know I'm changing alot doing things the normal shauna wouldn't do...here lately I've just been saying "Ah ******** it" and s**t like that...it seems like I don't give a damn anymore...but I do....is it possible to loose yourself? If so I think it is happening to me....*Sighs* Am I just screwed up in my head? I know for sure I'm bi-polar and I don't need a damn doctor to tell me that....it's funny here recently I've been doing very sparadic things...like monday I wore a skirt to school...I never do that...and today Monica (one of my gothic friends) told me I scared her which is really odd....because she isn't the scarable type...Leprechaun doesn't say much to me anymore because well I never stand still long enough to talk to hardly anyone I'm always on the go....I need a man...a really good one that would hold me and kiss me and tell me everything is gonna be ok when I get depressed...you know what I got bit by Karryl again...*shakes my head* never say bite me infront of her even if you are talking to someone else or she will bite you...on the bus Daniel (he is a guy that oddly reminds me of John for some reason because of the way they act but not look) well anyway he was beating me to death with a rolled up mag. I wanted to hit him but I didn't ....he gets on my nerves so badly sometimes that it isn't even funny....why are guys so confusing? Wow I know I am being really ADD because I've randomly changed subjects like three or four times....you know what my foot is asleep...and I'm waiting on this damn gamn to load grrr so I can finaly play it and I think this is my longest journal entry in here so far that is just typing no songs or anything....*thinks a moment* hmmmmm lol well anyways....You know I've started collecting emotocons on msn I will have to put them in photobucket and put them on here..that would be cool..hey if you have anycool ones that you think I might not have feel free to post them in my journal. Well I'm gonna take myself out of here and go to bed soon I am uberly tired because it is like almost 2 in the morning...hmm wow I didn't realize it was that early....or late depends on how you look at it really. I am really bored I have nothing to do hence the rambling in my journal I have no clue what the hell it all says because I don't remember typing it but okies....I think I should give a prize to the person who actually reads my journal and leaves a comment because I hardly ever get comments....*pouts* I like comments it lets me know that people still care and that they haven't died yet...Well I'm gonna go because I really need to stop rambling or no one will really read this because I'm pretty sure it is really long. Oh well Goodnight or Morning whichever way you look at it but anyrate goodnight!
Shauna/Devi/Strawberry/and all my other personalities that comes along with my mulipal personality disorder....
P.s if anyone goes to my livejournal on her at livejournal.com my user name is Strawberry_one but if you go there and happen to read my journal and it has some crazy s**t in it Kiwi probley did it because she has my password where she set up my account...*shrugs* Sad really lol but she writes some really funny yet stupid s**t in there ....well anyways goodnight!
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