<center> Single </center>
I am completely single, for the first time ever.
No boyfriend irl, on the net, in my daydreams...just...me. I feel weird again, but unlike before I am completely single.
I feel...vulnerable. gonk
...no one is obligated to protect me anymore...all I have are friends and no one is reliable like a boyfriend is {suppose to be}.
I thought Josh wanted to go out again, but today he told me pretty much to ******** off and not talk to him anymore. I wanna...message him, call him, PM him and say thats not what I want...but I'm so scard he'll say I'm bothering him and not to ever talk to him. I'm terrified of that. Yesterday on the phone he sounded so calm and cool and loveable and today its like old Josh came back...I made him mad, so I deserve this...I really just hope he's happy now...
I'ma sleep with my covers wrapped extra tight around me...I don't like being vulnerable. sad
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