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So here's a thought at 3:13 AM EST . . . . I'm stuck.
Completely stuck. Dead. Done for. Game over. The end. Stuck.

My little ol' characters have run off again only to not be found again. Why must this always happen? I haven't even started on the rewrite and yet they've up and vanished! I know this is pay back though, so I'm not completely worried. A little worried, not completely worried. Pay back--blackmail even.
I hate them.
A few new characters, mimicking Alice and Jax and the whole family, move into town claiming their vampires, and guess what? Little ol' me takes over some cookies and a cake to welcome them to the neighborhood and they start spilling their story. @#*! is all I have to say! DDx
Alice and Jax run off, taking Danielle and Crystal with them, and only leaving Seth with me. Seth!! I love the big lug but we don't get along too well--I mean, we get along, but he doesn't have so much to say other than something that has to deal with Danielle--and he's sort of depressed right now. They took his other half--his whole life--so now I'm left with an empty shell. Nobody is around except for these new characters! Dx
I've got Amelia and Constantine, and Angel and Marzel. All I can say is . . . no more A names! I've been known to use A and J for my names so much and it's driving me nuts!

Anyways = o=;;
You want to hear something interesting? Of course you do. Well, here it is:
I can tear off every bit of skin on my finger right now 8D
Yeahyeah, "Ew, that's so gross! Dx" or "Pfft, I don't believe that. Always begging for attention." Nope. That disease has engulfed my whole hand and since all it does is drain and drain and eat my flesh all day, I have some (okay, a lot) of loose skin that I can tear straight off revealing the rest of my meaty flesh. Yummy, huh? domokun

But this is really weird! Really, really weird! I actually have some feeling to . . . draw O.o;;
I don't know what it was exactly but while I was playing Crackdown for the umpteenth time (gosh I love Keys to the City so much~) and I thought, "Gosh, this has so much inspiration for the . . . . . . . comic ._____.;;;;"
The comic!!
Does anyone remember that comic? The random adventures I had planned but never got to drawing because I'm too much of a procrastinator? Yeah, that comic. I miss that comic but I have no sense of humor anymore; that, and, I can't draw anymore. Seriously, I pick up a pencil, I draw a few doodles . . . . doodles don't look like doodles. Doodles like someone vomited on the paper DD;
I cannot draw anymore; not even a simple eye. The things I used to be so good at have vanished. I'm drawingless. It sucks.

So yes, I'm stuck. Completely stuck. Why? Because I suck. Why? Because I say.

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time to the life I once had. That lie-filled life that had some meaning >__>