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have you ever been so overwhelmed that all you can do is sit there and cry?
that's how I am right now. I don't care if you read this. I'm just writing to write. To get things off my mind.
Have things ever been expected of you that you didn't know how to do? My AP Chem homework for this weekend is like that. I should know how to do it, and the fact that I don't bugs me. I can't remember anything. It's not that I choose to not remember, I just seriously can't. And my chem teacher doesn't understand that; my parents don't either. I try and try but I just can't. I've tried everything possible to try to remember how to do it but when someone puts something in front of me in that class I just freeze up and pretty much go stupid. There are so many things to remember that even if I tried I'd forget everything I remembered to begin with. And the pressure from everyone is just so demanding. They don't realize how badly I take it. Take all of it. High School is supposed to be fun not this torturous. I want to have fun, I want to be able to be motivated. I want to live my life. I don't want to have to be pressured into all the homework and the grades and the lifestyle that I Don't Want.