I got to see Michael yesterday..
It was fun! But I didn't get to be with him as long as usual..it was heartbreaking. I cried so hard. I wanted to stay there with him so much. But I felt so much better when he held me in his arms and told me he loved me..and just layed there with me and talked to me, made me laugh... heart
Then I got to see my friend, Shmea! (Gary) I've missed Shmea.. Michael doesn't like Shmea, so I have to break the news that I'm talking Shmea to Michael slowly..haha! Or he'll get a bit bad and hurt Shmea...>_<
And Kat is still here.. sweatdrop and a bit on my nerves. I love her to death but 3 days in enough!! I don't know if I can handle a whole week!!!! eek
I might get to see Michael today..I'm not sure... It depends on if he drives himself to the doctor or if his fat a** mom does. xp
With my luck that fat cow will drive him and I won't get to see him!!!!!! Aw....now I've made myself sad..
I'm so tired of being sad. I think I'm suffering from some sort of depression. It's odd.
And I always have feelings and worry about Michael.. Losing him...Him cheating..Him not loving me as much as I love him..and when I think about it, I get sad. So I'm always sad.. I don't want to be sad...
And I don't want to wake up 4 years from now to Michael cheating and me wasting all this time of my life on a guy that doesn't love me........I just get scared..
I want this feeling to go away but it won't. And talking to him about it helps, but only temporarily. Maybe it's just because I never see him enough.. *shrugs* I don't know. Part of my heart tells me it's all going to be ok. So..I'll trust that part. heart
heart K'lee Apple
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