well last thursday was the last day i was on the computer. the reason why is, i told my mom that i threw away my retainer at school on accident the tuesday before and she grounded me for lying to her. stare then on friday we went out to eat and my dad was talking about how he had to shut off a few vents to keep my room warm and my dad was pretty much complaining about it and i was like u didn't have to shut off the vents to the other rooms if u wanted ur guys' room warm all u had to do was open it and they yelled at me for "talking back to them" scream i don't think that talking back is a liable reason to ground me b cuz they take advantage of that excuse. evil then friday i said something nice again and they accused me of talking back! scream stressed that really pisses me off. so yea...then we had school closings friday, the monday after, tuesday, and wednesday. and i never was able to do n e thing till wednesday. which was going over to my friend's house biggrin yea then thursday night i had a weird dream. it was about first me and preston went to the movies..it ran well as a normal date u know, then we were going out the front door. and for some reason we walked across the street, nobody was coming. then out of nowhere a car came and before we could do n e thing it hit us. then the dream flashed over to the city park and me and preston were walking towards the little courtyard(no, not a cemetary..like a little garden thingy..lol.) then right before ne thing else happened that part of the dream faded away and into a dream that involved "bob"(the same "bob" from the last entry) and for some reason the background was redish...a very faded out red..like a deep but not too deep of a red...(this part of the dream was more vivid than the other one..the other one was fuzzy) it was like...if u look inside the mouth of this emoticon scream it was that color. well n e wayz i saw my mom but only for a second and it looked like she was in the car...she was yelling at someone but i couldn't tell. then i turned around and saw "bob" and we kissed!! i was mentally disturbed the next day!! he is pretty cute like if u saw him like once and u never met him before..tall..tan...which was why i had a crush on him the beginning of the year and the only thing my friend could get out of it was that my feelings for "bob" never went away. stressed gonk scream why doesn't it go away?? the more i think about the dream the more i think about "bob" i shouldn't even like him b cuz he's a liar and he didn't do ne thing when i told him i liked him AND when i asked him to go to the Snowball w/ me(a dance at our school). so yea. and i'm pretty confrustused (confused and frustrated) surprised i made my own word!! day before i was feeling like i wanted to throw in the towel and forget about guys but today i felt flirty ish. i hate that. i never know what i really want. and that i can't decide for myself. but when i can decide for myself i rarely get the chance to say it. well i'm writing a poem..when i'm done i'll post it.
 Arishya · Fri Feb 09, 2007 @ 11:09pm · 0 Comments |
