Wow, i really haven't updated my journal in a long time huh? xd Well, here's my life update....
Parents are not better but not worse. My step dad actually is quitting smoking, and is almost completely utterly considered a non-smoker! He only smokes when he drinks a little more than he should, which is a big improvment.. even though he drinks that much kind of often. My mom tried- for a few days. She promised she'll try again after valentines (gaarrrr). [if you do not know the deal with valentines day and the whole friggin time zone around it, see past posts] No, they have not let up on drinking and even though they keep talking about it- they haven't gotten any more active and haven't begun working out. She didn't divorce the stupid jerk, even though i told her how i really feel about him. They've only been to a few of my games (im a goalie and mid-field of a soccer team) and one or two they only stayed for half of it.
Friends.. well they're confusing. Some I wouldn't trade the world for, and trust me on this, because I've been given an option pretty close to that!! But others.. well its all drama and guys and my life sucks and everythings about me and i want attention and im like GAARRRRR!!! Every week or so somebody's gotta have some kind of breakdown, whether at lunch or home, and a couple of these people automatically come to me. [obviously these people are unnamed xd ] I dont mind this so much, if it didn't make me feel so selffish for wanting to be the one crying for once. Days go by though, slowly and surely. "Hold your head high....."
Well, thats all im gonna rant about for the moment. Thanks for reading!! ^^ Comments are loved.
oO NiiGHTSKY Oo Community Member 
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It's not selfish to want to be the one crying, its human. And (as far as I know) you are human, so don't feel like it's a bad thing. We all have a right to let our unpleasant emotions out. Wanting attention is also perfectly justifiable.