My friend Dani and I talked more than normal today. That makes me happy.
But... I guess that's the only good thing that happened today. Oh, joy; Oh rapture...
Travis had a detention after school, and Ashley had a test to take, so Adam, Matt, and I waited for them. So many people said hello to me today after school that my head started spinning. It's not like it's new or anything, but... I don't know. I'm turning into my old self... I know that sounds absurd, but... It's what I feel. The old me who doesn't like to be called Andy. The old me that doesn't like people. The old me that doesn't need friends to get by. The old me. The cold me... It's resurfacing. Am I going crazy? I don't know... I just don't know.
I was really, really mean to Adam after school today. I don't know why, I couldn't really control it that much... I wanted to stop yelling... I wanted to stop being so cold. But I just couldn't do it, no matter how hard I tried.
Another old friend resurfaced today. She's one of my ex-girlfriends, but I only went out with her for a few weeks. You know who you are, Leah. *sigh* It was nice talking to you today ^_^
This is so wierd... I'm becoming less of me and more of me at the same time. It's like... What is the quote... I'm becoming the me from the other side of my heart or something like that... I even enjoy shopping at thrift stores again. I know that was random, but it's the truth... *sigh*
siriustoast · Wed Jan 19, 2005 @ 10:45pm · 0 Comments |