God, i jsut e-mailed Mike back from an e-mail he sent me and i feel liek i said TOO much of what i felt. I just wish he would leave me alone sometimes but then when he does i feel bad for beign a b***h to him. He got all depressed yesterday because i wouldn't give him a hug at lunch. God, yesterday was liek the worst day of the year so far. I think he got mad at me because i told him that i didn't liek his brother and he IDOLIZES his brother...the rest of the day i didn't see him at all. It was like he was avoiding me. But lunch was so embarressing. I cried in fornt of, like, everyone. I couldn't find Ray anywhere and whereever i wnet he was gone and had just been there two minutes ago. Then when i asked Nick where he wne tnick said "He probably mad at you because Mike keeps flirtign with you and stuff."
And that really pissed me off. so i replied "well, yah know what? If he's pissed off because Mike is flirting with me then he can talkto mike instead getting mad at me." And left. I swear i HATE Nick. Everytime i'm finally happy in a relationship he's always trying to ******** it up. So at the end of lunch i started crying because i was stressed out and Nick was being...Nick and Ray might break up with me and we've only been going out for like three-four weeks. Then clent went up to me and asked me what was wrong...i only tpold beth though because i knew if i told Mary that there was a possibility that she would tell Davina/Nick. And i did'nt tellCatlain because i don't want to ruin her good day by griping. I didn't see Ray at all the whole day exept at lunch and he just pretty much ignored me...so by 6th hour i was just depressed adn Nick asks me whats wrong...i told him SOME of it and then asked him some stuff and he said that Ray told him that he was pissed off at me because of what i said to his brother. I knew that nick added and exagerated a few words because he was hesatating and he was changing what he was saying alot. But i still got upset again and ened up crying again. After school i saw Ray and i think he saw me and he went underneath the shade pear thingy magigg thing whre the dorrs were and iturned and gave him a wierd look adn he looked around and gave one back and then when i walked up to him to talk to him he hopped to the othger side of the thing and when i went to THAT sid ehe wouild jump to the other...so i was finally like ok, ******** you Ray, if your going to avoid me then i'm not going to tryand talk to you. And walked back to where the tree was. I don't remeber what he said but he cam eover to where i was and i asked him if he was mad at me...turns out that he was mad at Nick because nick kept bothering him about 'oh, look Ray, Mike is staring at Colbie!!!" and al this other stuff i guess. Bu ti still think that Ray is upset with me...and if he is he could at least talk to me about what it is....but i guess thats just not Ray is it? rolleyes *sigh* Oh, well, love him anyway....
 cheazyniff339 · Sat Sep 23, 2006 @ 04:29pm · 0 Comments |
