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I talked to Micah and that was cool, then......i TRIED to call Ray but his phone was dead but then my was dying and beeping too so i guess it didn't matter if i got ahold of him or not. I LOVE it that schools back cuz now i get to do things and i can see my friends every day and it's jsut really awsome...Ray hasn't gotten on gaia for a while now but he's been all over the place...it's kind afunny that he doesn't EVER have his homework finished EVER. rolleyes Actually that kinda bothers me...i mean, not like ARGHHH pirate bother me but just like *sigh* 'why can't he get his homework finished with instead of being lazy ' thing...so i'm not really irattated just a little dissapointed i guess...but i couldn't EVER tell him that though cuz i would feel bad. Catlain is annoyign me slightly, i realized that she has the talent/curse of being able to change everything that we or other people talk about into something that is about her. She did that last year when Rebecca was really upset this one time about people making fun of her adn all and she was crying into my shoulder when Catlain was like 'If people were mean to me i would kill them and chop off ther d**k and balh blah so on, other things that Catlain says." It bothers me that she does that...she thinks soO badly of herself but she likes to talk about herself ALOT but then she is kick-a** Catlian. And i could never tell her stuff that bothers me about her because that would be mean and she's like my really close friend adn all and she doesn't talk bad about ME so why should i talk bad about her? Or at least i don't think she does.. neutral
I hope she doesn't, but then again, i uppose i can be a really annoying dull prson sometimes... stare crying
So i'm like, soOo happy ever since i;'ve been with Ray (and at school). He makes me so happy!! 4laugh xd . I was really embarrest this morning because i accedentally said to him when i was leaving 'i love you.' and then when i was walkign away i was like'AGHHHH, stupid!! Not smart Colbie thing to say!' Yah, he says it to me occationally but i've never REALLY said it to him just because i'm not ready to say it back (i dont' mind if he sayds it though) and it's liek a bad luck thing for me, plus why am i goign to tell someone i love them when i don't? I mean i dont' mean it in a mean way, but i really really really really really really like him and he is sOo funny adn sOoO silly and SOo hot and cute adn all but i havn't known him long enough this way to actually have THAT strong of a feeling for him...but then again, this mornign what i said, i sooo did not mean to say that, i swear it just slipped out , it was wierd, and it scared me. God, ok, i have GOT to talk about this! Ok, so like, the second time he came over, we were siting on the living room couch and he was kinda souched over and his legs were kinda apart and he was kinda staring off out the window or something and he had one hand by his leg and the other resting on the top of the couch kinda and he was wearing those really hot baggy jeans that he always wears and a baggy shirt and i was jsut starign at him and thinking 'omg!' I seriously was wanting to jsut lean foward, run my hand up his thigh and make out with him. That was the only time that i've ever WANTED/or had the erge to make out with him but god!! That was SoOoOoOo hot!
And then when he smiles! It's sooo cute! I jsut wanna run up to him and tackle him and beary my face against his chest...ok, i'm done with the whole obsesstion with Ray talk.....I dont' know if i could biuld up the courage to kiss him on the lips though, maybe i'll try sometime this week but i think that might be moving too fast. redface God, i typed alot!!
 cheazyniff339 · Tue Aug 29, 2006 @ 02:37am · 0 Comments |
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