A few things:
A) David is seriously pissing me off.
He keeps being a little too friendly.
And I told him to stop [Three times!] but he doesn't.
He just "accidentally" touches me.
Like I said, pisses me off.
We were playing basketball and I had the ball and he like half-tackled me and I had to pull his hand off my chest and say "STOP IT!" in a really nasty way.
I told my mom that he was shocked when I walked in on Monday, she laughed and said he's always been in love with me.
...
What the hell?
B) You know that kid that used to pop balloons in my face?
He and his friend carry pocket knifes everywhere they go, so when we went to the circus with the little people from the little kid place. As we were walking out the speaker said: "...No weapons of any kind allowed in the arena." I found that really funny. I looked over at him and let out a few giggles. "Shut up..."
I know he's an a** and everything but I really want to impress him for some reason.
I want him to like me so he wants to be my friend.
I mean like, I don't act any different but I try not to say anything stupid...
I dunno, I probably seem like an idiot anyway.
Gosh.
I am for wanting to impress him.
What good would it do being friends with him?
C) Leila is bugging me too. Not pissing me off like David but... yeah.
I think too much quality time.
I thought she rolled her eyes at me today on the bus so I said, "What?"
Then somehow [I forget the dialogue] I get mad and she goes as says something to Sam.
That made me angry. I would've scooted away to the window but David was sitting next to me.
D) I'm thinking about getting a private journal because I don't want to hurt anybody's feelings when I get mad....
Overall it was an okay today...
<3Julie
A) David is seriously pissing me off.
He keeps being a little too friendly.
And I told him to stop [Three times!] but he doesn't.
He just "accidentally" touches me.
Like I said, pisses me off.
We were playing basketball and I had the ball and he like half-tackled me and I had to pull his hand off my chest and say "STOP IT!" in a really nasty way.
I told my mom that he was shocked when I walked in on Monday, she laughed and said he's always been in love with me.
...
What the hell?
B) You know that kid that used to pop balloons in my face?
He and his friend carry pocket knifes everywhere they go, so when we went to the circus with the little people from the little kid place. As we were walking out the speaker said: "...No weapons of any kind allowed in the arena." I found that really funny. I looked over at him and let out a few giggles. "Shut up..."
I know he's an a** and everything but I really want to impress him for some reason.
I want him to like me so he wants to be my friend.
I mean like, I don't act any different but I try not to say anything stupid...
I dunno, I probably seem like an idiot anyway.
Gosh.
I am for wanting to impress him.
What good would it do being friends with him?
C) Leila is bugging me too. Not pissing me off like David but... yeah.
I think too much quality time.
I thought she rolled her eyes at me today on the bus so I said, "What?"
Then somehow [I forget the dialogue] I get mad and she goes as says something to Sam.
That made me angry. I would've scooted away to the window but David was sitting next to me.
D) I'm thinking about getting a private journal because I don't want to hurt anybody's feelings when I get mad....
Overall it was an okay today...
<3Julie
Community Member
It's almost like a waiver that you sign. What other reason is there to make yourself more attractive if not to be more appealing in the eyes of the opposite sex? (Or same sex, but we won't go into that.)
So I see no reason to be in any way angered that you're getting what you want.
You actually talk to your mom about stuff like this?
My mom knows nothing about my personal life except what I tell her, which isn't much.
I think she knows your name, for example. But that's only because you're a close friend.
They're called hormones, doll. Being attracted to someone is neither a concious decision nor an explanable response-- and if it can be quantified it is not genuine.
Just stay away from his pocketknife. Both of them, if you get my drift.
And tell him the baby-eater says hello.
I think it says something about your personality that you forget what the actual dialogue was, what actually caused the spat. You tend to focus more on the response to the spat-- namely what the other person did-- than the intial misbehavior on the parts of either you or the unfortunate second party. You seem to relish chances to be indignant.
Said quality would make a really good hippie.
It is not worth having a journal if it does not generate problems. That's the point.
Besides-- if the person you write about is worth keeping around, your friendship with them should be able to withstand a few lines of virtual slander.
Sorry for the long comment. It's almost four-- the suicide hour, I'll have you know-- and being pretentious makes me feel better.
-- CARA