Sorry if it seems like I'm constantly whining about how nothing good is going my way...because that's the case for me right now. Q.Q
Hurricane Sandy came and went. Even though I was safe from any flooding, the sustained high winds were enough to cause the lights to flicker and in one case, cause my beloved HP Elite h8-1300z and router to mysteriously restart themselves. That led to me enduring the three most boring hours of my life in which I left my PC shut down after it restarted--fearing any more power hiccups would cause damage to my rig. By the time Midnight rolled in, the winds died down enough for me to safely get back on my PC and thus, on the Internets. o.o
The following day things were calm. I was one of the lucky ones as even in Bay Ridge, we had downed trees on multiple blocks. I also learned that virtually everywhere around us fared worse to the point that I have not left Bay Ridge since Sandy did what she did. o.o
To this very moment, I still feel tension in the air as gas is still being rationed and that there are still parts of the city that are still not back to normal. My boss, who lives in the Rockaways, had her basement flooded out and her car washed out such that it took her days to find it again. My cousin who lives out in Long Island had no power to her place when we last talked two weekends ago and with AT&T's service still not back up to normal speed, I can't be sure that she'll receive any text messages I send the moment I send them. >.<
It didn't help that I had a few DSL hiccups last Friday Night and Saturday Night. My Clear 4G was up to speed and as such I lucked out in that it was actually running fast, but I honestly do feel like I've been in this constant cycle of stress since the 5th of August earlier this year. The hypervigilance over maintaining normalcy in my life I've developed since that day has caused me to change for the worse, where things that did not adversely reflect my morale, and these two events in my life certainly aren't helping me. >.<
If there's anything I wish God would grant me right here and now, I wish I had the iron-clad resolve I had before I turned 25 back. Since I turned 25, I've become nothing short of a nervous wreck. Q.Q
CrazyBunnyShota Community Member 
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