I want to yell back so hard. I want to give back everything and make her cry too. The onl way for me to not do anything is to stay silent. I'm exhausted, tired, out of fuel. I Just needed to have an easier day today. I wanted to sleep in... technically I did. A lot of random text messages from everyone. I don't really mind its nice. But I really wanted to rest in peace. I always panic if my phone is on silent when I'm asleep too.. so thats not an easy fix.
I didn't want to be bothered so early. I went down stairs to get a drink.. All I heard was change the bunny's cage (duh I know that) and help your cousin and then the gate fell on my leg (dog gate). I was like ******** hell. I don't want to do this s**t.
Mom got made and was like... GET OUT. Youre rude. Leave your car keys. You don't help with anything and (took a cookie) don't eat our food.
YOU KNOW WHAT?! I left in 2009. WHY COULDN'T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE? I ran away and she didn't leave me alone. Everyday she called. Crying, acting like I died. I left the car keys, I left my cell phone. I didn't take anything but the clothes that I knew that I had purchased and my laptop. That's always important.
I already left once and you begged for me to come back. I'm leaving again that doesn't mean that I care. But the fact that this day started like this kinda gets me bummed out. I'm glad I'm leaving.. I do hope it's next month. I don't give two shits anymore. I'm not returning home.
I'm going to work my a** off in California. I can't stay here with my family. My goal is to make my mom eat those words. If she ever does what her parents are doing right now I will stick her in a nursing home. She just lost all respect from me.
It's not like I'm my brother who doesn't live at home, doesn't do s**t.. I ******** hate that. I pay for my own bills. Fine, if thats the way it's going to be. I'm going to buy just everything for myself. I work hard... maybe not hard enough I don't know. I'm just pissed she said that. I definitely didn't wake up on the right side of the bed this morning.
 Celeste_Orchid · Sat Oct 06, 2012 @ 05:28pm · 0 Comments |
