Why do I feel like everything I'm saying, speaking, doing is a lie?
Why can't I just live how I want to, where I want to, do what I want to?
Why can't I be happy for at least one week, year, hour?
Will it kill me if I ever do attain my utopia?
It's one risk I'll take, that is if I ever can attain what sleeps as a dream or makes sense in my head....
Will I ever find my true self, emotion, feelings?
Will I receive retribution for the pains done to myself, in order to please another?
The apparent retribution is the one you helped being taken away.
How could you ever stand such a loss?
When something starts, does it necessarily have to end?
I know I've gained a feeling March 17th, just tell me that it will never abandon me, or the thing it involves.
Those feelings have been lost, just as I've feared.
I knew it'd come, but I tried not to believe.
Is life really worth living, if you can't live happy or without fear?
 Fujiwa Enoki · Tue Mar 27, 2012 @ 01:17am · 0 Comments |
