I don't think I've felt this numb before. A couple hours ago my friend told me on IM that my ex, Justin, ("Jake" wink is going out with a Kayla, a girl who I try my best to get along with, but still bugs the hell outta me. He was the one who asked her out too... As soon as I read it I just went numb. It felt like someone tore through me and twisted out my heart. I even started shaking! I mean, I was wanting to wait for the dance coming up and try to fix things agian then. I won't be able to now though. God, I wish I never cared about him! I wouldn't feel so depressed then. -sigh- But I'd rather feel this way and let him be happy with her then for him not to be happy.... if that makes sense...
Inuyasha_fan_girl_1 · Mon Apr 10, 2006 @ 01:57am · 4 Comments |