 After the year i spent without seeing him. I thought my feelings would change. I really thought this. I mean really, I changed a lot within the year he wasn't here. i was more happy, and more grateful with everyone around me. But then it hit. High school was coming, and he coming back into my life.
How did I take this? I took this hard. I was scared. I didn't know what to do! Was he going to think of me the same? Is everything goes back how it was like before? Was it going to be something like that, again?
The year came, my high school year. It started out great too! I meet up with my friends I haven't seen for 3 months. I couldn't stop smiling. I was happy after so long. But then the words I was fear to hear....his name. My mind went crazy, my heart wouldn't stop beating, my legs felt weak. What's wrong with me? It wasn't this bad 2 years ago. Did my feeling grew more?
After my classes. I eyes started to sadden, My heart beating itself to death I saw him again. He still looked as amazing as before. Again, It felt like time had stopped, and he and was alone.....Why....are these feeling back? I'm scared again, I'm worry to the point I can't think, I'm shaken up again, my heart was filled with happiness and pain. What was I going to do?
But...my eyes never came off of him the next day. It was just like 2 years ago all over again. The question now is can I be something to him? But now....I feel less to able to reach him. I'm farther from him than ever. And a girl in his eyes...will she come and take him away. and bring back that pain? so many thought.....so many....
i realized, my feeling seem to stronger than 2 years ago.....
 Taiyachi · Sat Oct 03, 2009 @ 08:53am · 0 Comments |
