Many had asked me. Why do I even like him? Now, to me it seem more than that. i can't help think it's love, but my mind can be playing with my heart.
He was the type of guy that would have caught many hearts. And broke many.You would say many girls would have fallen for him in first site. Me? One of them. No, not at all. In fact I hated him. I thought he was snobby, and annoying. but I soon thought I wasn't giving him a chance. And this was the cause of everything. when i did gave him a chance. I get falling for him.
His looks, His smile, His eye, His voice, Just everything. Everything about made my heart beat so much. i couldn't accepted that I liked him . I try to forget him, try to hate him. But i just could. My mind always came back to him.
Even hearing his haste words to the one i care for. I HATED him for that. but....i couldn't help to still like him. this has lasted so long. i just keep like him in the end..... so far about 2 years pasted. I still like him to this day.
BUT.....
something blocked my way to my answer if this is love. A friend I knew for a long time. I adore him. To the point I think as him as a brother. I once was always by his side and he was by my side. But then we grew....and I found out, In the end it was for another. He doesn't come, He doesn't even talk, on his own will to me ever since the other left.
Why does my heart ache so? Why does it want him here? Why am I to point to give up? Ever since i found this out....For some reason I didn't want to give him away to anyone. I have knew him for years. But never one thought of him this way. Never once wanted this.
I guess that saying is true. ' You don't know how much you love something or someone, till you lose them or it'
I guess I miss him.....or is it more? I don't know. I really don't know. I just want to let everything go. Let him to speared his wing high into the sky. I can't keep this bird forever. I'm just too attach.....right?
Tell me please. Who do I like more?
 Taiyachi · Tue Aug 11, 2009 @ 08:10am · 0 Comments |
